rewind, replay.


teachers day 2008 celebration was a little more fun than all the other teachers day celebrations in the three years i've been in crescent.

a few surprises here and there which made me a oh so happy kid once again. caught me a little off gaurd but it made my day.

and i practically glowed in my curie house shirt the whole morning through.

the performances was insanely hilarious. and sweet of course. absolutely shocking finale by the principle. but the school decided to be nice and sing along which should be a first.

and being the nice student i could possibly be, my teacher's day gift was to hand all my homework which was issued this week. well most of it anyway which i sacrificed my precious beauty sleep for!

& of course, happy teacher's day.



all alone but im just fine.


because i just couldnt bear to watch real flowers wilt.


oh. oh okay.

sometimes if you say something enough, you'll start believing it yourself.

"i am not afraid"

i guess its perfectly clear amanda's lost it. completely and utterly. ah oh wells, i think i'll take a while to find it back though.

http://www.aysh-.blogspot.com/ (im not online) says:
i dont make sense

We, too, could be glorious. says:
YOU DON'T ??

http://www.aysh-.blogspot.com/ (im not online) says:
oh no
i think ive lost it hahaha

We, too, could be glorious. says:
LOST WHAT!

http://www.aysh-.blogspot.com/ (im not online) says:
haha my sanity

We, too, could be glorious. says:
Oh
-shakes- ARE YOU OKAY!!!

http://www.aysh-.blogspot.com/ (im not online) says:
hahahaha i really dont know
hahahaha does that count as a yes?

sure it does. and sure, im just fine.

flahes her oh-so-shiny-blinding-braces-megawatt-smile.

honey, you need to know


that you were never worth the wait.

but im still waiting. for your call. it's been 6 and a half hours and counting.

such perfect irony.

you got me heels over head & my world upside down, inside out. this is the crazy i live through and the same crazy i live for.

this is me. crazy and everything.


dont you think its hilarious, how someone can tell me "i know you too well" and not know me at all?

funny how this world judges. but there never was any justice to it all. its crazy the way i am and crazy what people want me to be, perfect and perfect.

give me a break.

sometimes, dont you wish, that the world would think its simply enough to be yourself?


and i really dont know if you understood a single line in my blogpost.

she's a happy pill & way overdosed.


watch her smile

i just made myself a very happy little human being to walk the surface of the earth.

very very happy.

i decided to be nice and upload all the pictures from tuesday(tea appreciation excursion). then i printed out pictures to place in my wallet in the mean time. and i went to browse through my ancient photos to see how fugly i used to be.

and the whole time i was smiling spastically in front of my computer screen.

funny how everything feels so long ago. (no, i am not old.) exactly why pictures make me a happy happy kid.

they hold your smile forever. i remember someone telling me that before. explains alot doesnt it.

so enjoy.


haha so typical amanda







my awesome photography. kidding.





jean's trademark shot


tea appreciation excursion

talk about excursions man, i cant remember the last time i went on one. really went high and camwhored like crazy(as always i know).





lao shi!



that pillar is the love.







haha candid.

lixin's trademark shot

jollin's #1

and jollin's #2. haha.







yy and her happy moments



"Hahahahahahahahahahahahaha."

and i cant remember what i was laughing so hard about.

to see your face again.

unsaid. and so much better.


"but i always miss you"


oh no.

sure amanda's going crazy.

forget study or movie dates with friends. suicide dates are starting to sound a little more attractive with school being way hectic and stressing their poor little kids til they pull all their hair out. in the end the school will be populated by a bunch of bald, stressed out 13 to 16 year olds who have absolutely no life other than mug mug mugging and more mugging.

find me a random wall to ram myself into.

poor wall. (and i already got a date to do this. haha.)

okay ignore amanda, im talking bonkers. the stress is getting to me i swear. but then again, i've always never made much sense.

and concrete evidence of how stressed up we are in school,


this is what we do during our precious lunch periods. amanda and amanda.

matching headphones and same sleeping angle. amanda's sleep alike.

popping pills darling.


she's supposed to make it on her own?


woke up this morning running a temperature.

hardly slept through the night even though i took medicine which was supposed to make me sleepy. popping tablets down my throat every four hours to keep my fever down. missed two papers plus chinese oral today.

sheesh.

haha but forget it, optimism right?

thanks to all the kiddos for their get-well-soons.


anyway,


this was taken last monday.

im thankful for my brothers no matter how much they get on my nerves.


you're not here

the little voices in her head.



you're so precious.



step 2, smile.


this is amy the bimbo.

this is what my dearest partner, who sways from side to side and whines(skill picked up from yours truly and proud of it. heh.) when she sits next to me everyday in class, percieves me to be. she absolutely insists that i am a bimbo.


yuin yi: eh are you a bimbo?

aysh: huh? err no.

yuin yi: oh okay you are. only a bimbo denies she's one.


and that was how amanda/aysh/amy became a bimbo. oh wells.


anyway, doodling makes amanda a happy kid when school's taking its toll on her. (the followng doodles are of pure originality, ownership of www.aysh-.blogspot.com)


yesterday, "where are you"

today, "oh. you're not here. i miss you"

tomorrow, "but it's okay"

sweet, no?